| Wednesday, September 22nd, 2004 |
| 3:15 am |
it's holding me, morphing me and forcing me to strive to be endlessly cold within and dreaming I'm alive |
| 3:14 am |
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| Tuesday, August 24th, 2004 |
| 3:24 pm |
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| 5:37 am |
Pearl necklace?
SHIT this weekend is the comic convention and festival of fear.... $40 for a pass to those. I have to go pawn off a ton of shit to go to this. If i get this job wednesday, I am borrowing $ from my dad FOR SURE. I need a ton of Jamie Hewlett comics, more Meat Cake, and I need need need all Avengers and Ultimates stuff. NEED IT! I am starting on my Tank Girl costume tomorow. I'm not sure it will be done very soon, I'm aiming for Halloween. And I am SO excited for Halloweeeeener! I am sewing the hottest outfit on earth which I will wear to some sort of 80's fest. I need some new outfits for Fetish too... I made a few drawers offical spots for costumes and all my aprons. One day I will find the perfect trunk to have all my costumes in at the foot of my bed. WHY IS EVERYTHING THIS WEEKEND???????? Damn. I really think I am going to get this one or few Tank Girl tattoo I've been drawing up...I want everything tattoos. I want this icon ON MY FACE. I found a bunch of lino bits and stamps and stencils I made. So much stuff to make and hardly any time...Not to mention I have been putting off fixing the dreads again... that's like SIX THOUSAND HOURS right there off my day tomorow. Damn. Thankfully Steph has lent me a nosering for the time being, so I can stop looking like Queen of the Morons. Maybe I should pawn my pearl necklace too. A girl doesn't need diamonds and pearls... I wonder if my aunt would be sad if she ever found out. But I could say... it goes against my vegan beliefs? When the hell am I ever going to need a pearl necklace? (Which I cannot even say without cracking up). I've had it for a decade now and maybe worn it... 4 times? If even. Who needs that? I don't really have any attachments to a lot of fancy jewlery I have hidden away somewhere. I don't even like gold. I just have guilt issues getting rid of it. And do I really need my stilettos? I love them so much. I feel like Barbie and the Rockers or something. But I don't think I can even walk on them ever again. AGH. I need boots I need shoes I need a skateboard I need a water filter I need more laundry dollars....... Current Mood: she's crafty |
| Monday, August 16th, 2004 |
| 3:54 pm |
No Doubt: New The rest of the song is so good, but these very important lyrics popped into my head last night: Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stayDon't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away
New, you're so
new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past
New, you're so new
My normal
hesitation is gone
And I really gravitate to your will
Are you here to fetch me out?
'Cause I've never had this taste in my mouth
Oh you're not old
And you're not familiar
Recently discovered and I'm learning about you
New, you're so
new
You, you're new
And you're
consuming me violently
And your reverence shamelessly tempting me
Who sent this maniac?
'Cause I never had this taste in the past
Oh you're
different, you're different from the former
Like a fresh battery. I'm energized by you
Don't let it go
away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away
Why am I so
curious?
This territory is dangerous
I'll probably end up at the start
I'll be back in line with my broken heart
New, you're so new
You, you're new
And I never had this taste in the past
Don't let it go
away
This feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away
This feeling has got to stay
And I can't believe I've had this chance now
Don't let it go away
And I can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Can't believe it
Don't let it go away, this feeling has got to stay
Don't let it go away You see I'm still on this comeplete high from Warped Tour. I'm so happy and tingly and I haven't even been able to listen to a single other song since. I can listen to bands that played there, and re-live the moment, but it would be TOO GOOD. |
| 3:52 pm |
Save Yourself Stabbing Westward Darkest Days I know your life is empty And you hate to face this world alone So you’re searchin’ for an angel Someone who can make you whole I cannot save you I can’t even save myself So just save yourself I know that you’ve been damaged And your soul has suffered such abuse But I am not your savior I am just as fucked as you I am just as fucked as you I cannot save you I can’t even save myself So just save yourself Please don’t take pity on me Please don’t take pity on me Please don’t take pity on me Please don’t take pity on me My life has been a nightmare My soul is fractured to the bone And if I must be lonely Then I think I’d rather be alone I think I’d rather be alone You cannot save me You can’t even save yourself I cannot save you I can’t even save myself Save yourself So just save yourself |
| 1:33 am |
It's hard to write in a journal where your friends here (many of them) only know you from what you write, and the moments you see each other at clubs once a week or more. So it's hard to write something and put your energy out, when you know you are going to be judged for it, whether you care or not. |
| 12:05 am |
wholly shit.
I just got an email update for my fotolog account, and the 4 pictures I uploaded this week have been viewed 2,200 times. WHOLLY SHIT. What's sad is that I don't put any "work" in there. It's pretty much all pictures of me, different memories and places. But wow. So I am now putting crappier uglier digital "stamps" on my pictures. Because.. who knows what ass is going to take my pictures. It's happened before so I should just do this. Anyways, here are some pics I am thinking I may put on my site (in the works). ( Read more... ) |
| Tuesday, August 10th, 2004 |
| 2:49 am |
whenever I'm alone with you... |
| Saturday, August 7th, 2004 |
| 2:32 am |
I ate a big mutherfucking big red candle biach!!!!!!! |
| Thursday, August 5th, 2004 |
| 4:15 am |
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| 3:27 am |
Watchimals!
 Lookit how thin my dreads were! This is ages ago! Tia is looking at me funny hahahaha. Man what I would do to have that matress back... But alas. One cannot always depend on Depends. Anyone remember Watchimals?!?! |
| 3:22 am |
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| 3:13 am |
Current Mood: the toxicity of our city |
| Friday, July 30th, 2004 |
| 6:19 pm |
do you know how shitty is it to write something and have it all dissapear by hitting the wrong button or key? fucking terrible. I'm not even going to try that again. |
| 6:12 pm |
I feel as full of shit as Victor Mancini. Minus two rubber balls logged in my anal cavity. |
| 3:03 am |
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| Thursday, July 29th, 2004 |
| 3:49 am |
but the look in your eyes, it says otherwise |
| 3:00 am |
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| Tuesday, July 27th, 2004 |
| 7:31 pm |
What was once 'We're on a beach, alone at night. Rolling in the sand. He slowly unties the string around my neck...', has now become Vibrator On, Vibrator Off. Romance is dead. |
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